… the sound of crickets chirping on calm summer nights…
Sometimes I completely lose control and want to eat just for the sake of eating. When I’m working on my thesis. When I’m relaxing. Eating provides more than just nutrients and sustenance, it provides comfort, pleasure, and a surge of sugared energy.
It fattens me. It makes me unhappy. It’s an impulse that my mind can’t thwart. I am a locomotive stopping at nothing until a cup of granola is down pat. Or pie. Or doughnuts. Things delicious. I am a slave to deliciousness.
Nina-Lois Turtledove is deeply interested in philosophy, psychology, peace studies, nutrition, tradition, and progress. When she's not slinging meatloaf and gingerbread at a highly acclaimed Denver restaurant, she is helping found an online music school. She is writing a manual designed to improving people's lives through yoga, cooking, and gardening (among other things). This is an online collection of her journal.
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Steam from the coffee
Permeated our nostrils
An oboe carried a raw melody
in through the open window
As lace curtains waved
in an afternoon breeze
Drawing attention away
From paintings dotting shadowed walls
to an unfocused point
suspended somewhere in the air
The perfect scene of a film,
My cousin and I agreed.
So, Do you have a man?
My momma's mom asked me
Bent from the weight of her years
Even though I sat she looked up to talk to me
Gazing through my momma's eyes.
I answered as though speaking from my momma's soul.
Yes.
And what do you want to do?
Write books from the hearts of beautiful worldly places
That would make it hard to raise a family.
It would.
But I can only be faithful
To the love that is in my soul.
One must find the quiet inside,
And hear that tiny voice of the Calling
Which gets louder
when the exclamation is
Love!