Conjuctio Divino
It’s a slippery slope between single and married. A lot happens between falling in love, and committing yourself entirely to a person. Especially after having loved and lost so much in my life. We plunged in and are taking the next step slow, as it crystalizes. I’ve seen my unconscious holding back in the household, and self-protection.
My family has made me. They act as if my man has to win their trust and they are suspicious. Why hasn’t he married me yet? they ask. I resent that they shake me down and they put me on the defensive. They don’t know what is right for me– they may think they do, but I wish they would relax and support me where I am. All my life I have clawed at the world in determining my own way. My life has its own pace, its own time, its own rightness, as does my significant relationship. I delve into my soul and reflect– is this right? Is this my man? His beautiful image bounces back at me. It is, he is.
I love, I release, I open, I love more fully. I open up my nurturing arms. Giving love, unafraid; there is no void. I am safe, nurtured, loved, and protected. After a large portion of life feeling these things lack, I am finally home.
Nina Lois is a graduate student at the University of Colorado at Denver obtaining a Master's Degree in Humanities with a B.A. in political science. Her passions are broad when it comes to the human condition. She is deeply interested in philosophy, psychology, environmental and social justice, peace studies, music, nutrition, tradition, and progress. 
Upon her imminent graduation, she wishes to contribute to the health, wealth, and happiness of the community through involvement, writing, and research. For goodness's sake, love the body, cultivate the mind and a garden, and feed the soul!
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