Awkward Presentation

Songbird stampI don’t like being on the spot. I can sing like a song-bird to you when I am inspired, and can orate on a whim like no other. However, when it’s a test, it makes me nervous. It is an insecurity that creeps up when I am on the spot.

In the spot, dark room, piercing hot white light on the top of my head, making my hair hot and my stomach drop. Why? What beliefs do I have of you that I let this happen? Do I perceive a threat to my self-worth?

I am in control when you don’t expect it of me, demanding perfection. It is I that demands it, do you too? Are you demanding it of yourself. I sprinted off from the start line and hadn’t stopped to collect myself, to collect energy, and your attention.

Reminds me of the Cardigans song “In the Round”

I am young and I’m alive
I want to talk about things
I am young and I own my life
I need to talk about it, baby

I am one but I asked for two
I didn’t get anything
This puppet’s lonely without you
It’s tough to walk without strings

I do my dance in the round

I’m right on track but this state is frail
You slip out and derail

I do my dance in the round
So people clap your hands
Clap your hands

I wanna do it right this time
I wanna step in time
I wanna do it right this time, yeah!

Clap your hands

I gotta get get it right this time
I wanna step in time
I wanna do it right this time

I do my dance in the round

I am young, coming at you live
People gonna talk about me
When I’m done, please hang me high
For everybody to see

Cause I do my dance in the round
So people clap your hands

I wanna get it right
I’m dyin’ to get it right
I wanna get it right
I’m dyin’ to get it right

Open, Reflection | 28.02.2010 20:03 | No Comments



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